Last night, my dad yelled at me again. It’s not the first time nor is it the last. He’s an yeller. Being an yeller for the 15 years has made him a BP patient too recently. But recently, my BP rate is increasing too. I knew I had to calm myself down. Now that I’m carrying again, My husband and family are dependent on me to be safe. I had to follow some strategies to overcome the anxiety I got while arguing.
First thing that is the biggest stress buster of dating teens came to my mind. But it’s not very good for me. So, I settled for just watching or reading the act. I might have watched that for an hour perhaps, I got bored. So I started reading the Gita.
I got distracted by the memory of the incident and then I restarted the way to access those sites. I watched and read some comics and then found a video where a teacher was taking advantage of a teenager girl, which aroused me so much and I resorted to do the job single handedly. After the climax, I got frightened and I was occupied with guilt. So, I texted my husband that my dad yelled at me again and went to sleep. It was around 3.30 am.
Next morning, I woke up very late, thinking about it and my husband had called me inquiring about the incident and advised me to stop talking with my dad. Probably it’s better than getting abused. In the meanwhile, I also reflected on the arguments I made against his.
My father told me that my sister was not taken care of by her in laws. He added that she was eating upma which is unhealthy. I told that upma was not unhealthy but less nutritious. He argued that her husband had not been giving enough attention to her. He basically told me that she’s a soft and polite victim.
In the words, soft and polite, I lost my patience. She’s not a soft spoken woman. She scolds at people uncontrollably. She even asked me for using the gift presented by my hubby and when I denied, she played the victim card and cried. She’s both manipulative and retarded in that way. Ask her mother in law, the father in law will be biased but the mother in law is not. So, I informed him she was not very innocent and victim.
He immediately started accusing me of always being argumentative. I informed that we have to argumentative when we have a point. He even justified his actions towards my mother and claimed that she was argumentative and arrogant and so she was abused. I informed him that was the reason for my sister’s abuse too.
Well, then I informed him that I was gonna disconnect the call and didn’t wait long for his reply and disconnected the call.
In the morning, he messaged a positive quote to me while I am thinking about blocking him.
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