I met with an accident

Hi Folks

This is a very personal post about an accident that happened over the weekend like they always do. Wow, accidents are really more in weekends, a bit ironical for the stress-free holidays. Anyway, this post is not about the relationship between stress free days and accidents, but about the story of my accident.

I met with an accident on last Saturday, by 11 am, IST. I thought I was being my true self and stress free, but since then, none at my home is stress free. Even my toddler is traumatised.

I was at work today and till 4pm, everything was fine, I was into work so much that I forgot my pain or my injuries. But once it crossed 4 pm, all the memories came back to me, reminding me of my accident, the pain and everything bad associated with it.

It was Saturday, I was bathing my child, but baby was having other requirements like sleep and taking a dump, so was crying. In the meantime, Someone was knocking my door, I opened the door and my ex-disrespectful servant asked me if she had to clean up my room, where I was then in a pacifying war with my child, I got super annoyed and shouted that she didn’t have to clean at that moment.

After successfully pacifying my baby, I went back to my servant and asked her to clean up my room, she told me that she would do after sometime, I knew that she was pissed and so I again went to the other room where she was cleaning and asked her to clean up my room.

After a while, when I heard her footsteps near my door, yes, she wouldn’t inform when she leaves , just leaves on her own, I saw she left my home.

I ran outside and asked her why didn’t clean my room, she said that I didn’t tell her to clean and that’s why she left. I immediately got furious and told her that she was fired and she responded that she was fine. End of story, or so I thought.

After 1 hour she came back to my home and started yelling at me. I asked her to leave multiple times and I told her that I would call the cops on her and even then she was staying there. My husband was there doing nothing.

I got injured, traumatised. I have been feeling anxious and afraid. I am an introvert and such people make hate extroverted liars.

I know I have made mistakes but not like this. I was raised to be honest, respectful by my beautiful late mother. After her death, I had to make a lot of compromises, because of my stupidity, low desires, short term goals. One of my mistakes is my marriage, I married a guy, that I never liked in the first place, because my father forced me to marry someone and only he was my suitor.

But that’s ok, people make mistakes and they grow due to the pain of their mistakes. Yea I met with a mental accident. I just hope, that I never have to repeat the same mistakes again.